Here I am again,
Lord, facing a blank page with an empty mind,
wondering why my love for the written word
is hampered by the inability to forge the right ones in an easy flow.
And has my passion for photography disappeared
or is it suffering from not being fed by frequent changes of scenery?
I thought that I had fared so well in this past season of little light.
I had even been able to exercise with a reasonable frequency.
Or is it something I fear even more than death,
the loss of myself in that dreaded disease Alzheimer?
Am I being consumed by that green devil called Envy?
Or is it despair disguised as admiration
thinking that those bloggers I marvel at have no problem
with the flow of words onto the page,
that their Muses visit them often
with their gifts of word-weaving,
and clear visions of just the right likeness
to accompany their verses?
Or, horror of horrors,
have I approached my blogs with the wrong attitude-
the desire of having a massive number of visitors to my sites,
thus filling me with an inflated ego?
This thought was sparked by reading Courtney Chowning’s
Blogging Tips from the Fruit of the Spirit.
I ask You, the ultimate Creator,
to send your Spirit to fill my psyche
with the necessary means to write,
or help me to face the hard truth
that my talent lies not in writing,
Or perhaps my gift lies elsewhere.
Enlighten me, I ask, through Christ, our Lord.